The idea of the unknown is, at times, completely terrifying. What’s going to happen if I’m not following a plan? Where am I going if I don’t know where I’m going?
Somehow, over the years, I’ve become more comfortable with the unknown. Life rarely goes according to plan, and even less often do things turn out the way I expect they will.
I’ve been in many situations that changed when I didn’t want them to, but looking back, the changes seem to have a positive affect on my life. Of course the positive affect isn’t always something I notice at the time, but looking back, I acknowledge the blessings even unwanted change brought me.
Some years ago, I had a job I enjoyed at a company I enjoyed- until my company was bought out. I had a lot of anxiety about the acquisition and my new role- it wasn’t a role I would pick for myself or even something I thought I’d enjoy. Looking back, that company and that job provided me with great friendships, great professional experience, and I even enjoyed the work! When the acquisition was first announced, I was filled with fear and uncertainty, but of course it all worked out just fine, as most things do.
I’ve also experienced those transitional times in life, where I don’t know exactly what’s next, but I know what doesn’t work but I don’t know what does.
Years ago I went through a divorce. My marriage certainly didn’t work out the way I wanted, or the way I thought it would. The end of my marriage changed my entire life plan; I didn’t know what was next. Once again I was fearful and uncertain.
I find myself facing the unknown again today. My professional choices haven’t helped me meet my goals, and so I find myself without a plan. At least temporarily. Do I adjust my strategy? Do I rethink my goals? Am I on the right path? What is the right path?
Today, I’m not afraid of the unknown. I’m embracing the unknown. I’m feeling patient, peaceful, and purposeful. I don’t know what’s next, but I know life is full of opportunity.
I’ve done a lot of conscious and intentional work to get to where I am today. Maybe all I really need to do is get out of my head and let the next step happen. Maybe what I thought I wanted isn’t really what I want at all, and I’ll find myself doing something I love- even if it’s not what I thought I’d love.
I know that real happiness isn’t about getting what I want, it’s about wanting what I get. It’s making the most of what I have.
I’ll be sure to let you know as soon as I know the next step. I’ll tell you one thing, the next step involves continuing my path of enlightenment and growth, which includes writing this blog. I hope you’ll find patience, peace, and purpose reading about my journey, and it will help you navigate your own. 🙂
